I've mastered the absent gaze
I've mastered the faking while having sex
I've mastered the why should I care
But things I didn't master are certainly a lot harder
Like waking up a quarter to eight
or telling my secrets to somebody real.
Like saying goodbye with a hug,
and crying at a funeral, for real.
Reading ten pages per day,
and drinking less coffee, they say tea will do it
like losing all of my extra weight
and saying i love you, just for the sake of it
but all i can think of is
to keep just on thinking
about it
cause learning is hard
especially if nobody can teach you
and thinking can bring you down
especially if nobody can relate
i've mastered how to escape,
i've mastered some card games, i'm actually good at them
i've mastered eating whole wheat bread
but things i didn't master are certainly a lot lousier
like cleaning the floor with a mop
and cooking a meal that doesn't look like vomit
like shouting at the top of my lungs
well maybe that's not true, i've definitely done it
but staying up studying all night,
or drinking just one beer and that's that
or playing this fucking violin
or staying alive, just for the sake of it
